Oh Baby!!!

Last night, laying in bed with daddy who is super sick right now, I just burst into tears. Poor daddy laid there rubbing my back not knowing what was wrong or what to do, but he did ask what was going on. Me: "I'm crying cause I'm pregnant" was my sobbed reply. Daddy: "Ummmmm...." Then every fear I've felt durring this pregnancy came spilling out. I don't know where some of them came from and a few of them were completely unfounded even! But when you're on a pregnancy induced hormonal roller coaster, rational thought sometimes leaves you dumbstruck. That was me last night. As I sobbed in daddy's arms last night I bared my soul to him. You see sweet Bean, I am terrified of not being the best mommy for you. I don't want to be the mom that makes you do everything while I do nothing. I promise I won't sit on the couch while you fetch me ice water and rub my feet before you are allowed to do kid things. I won't say "we" are g...

Let's face it. Daddy has always loved shoes. Always. He doesn't buy a whole bunch all at once, but when he does buy them, he gets the good ones. Stylish, comfy, functional. Tonight daddy started your collection of shoes. We stopped at Old Navy "just to look" and lo and behold the baby shoes are all on sale! We're talking 75% off sister! He bought you 6 pairs.... You'll love them. Promise. Or at least I'll love them on you. At 0-3 months I doubt you'll have much of an opinion!

Hi baby! Mommy here. Just checking in. Today we have another monthly check up with Dr. Woods. While we are super excited to hear your heart beat again, I am not so excited about the blood glucose screening test I get to take today. I get to chug a super sweet drink in under 5 minutes. Wait an hour and have my blood drawn. If I take to long to drink the syrup, or the technician can't get my blood drawn within the hour I have to redo it! I hope it all goes smooth. On the plus side, your checkup days have turned into date night for daddy and I! Last month we tried a new Chinese restaurant and it was surprisingly very good. Not sure what we'll try tonight but it's always fun to go out and relax and let someone else do the cooking and cleaning while we talk about you!

Ten minutes past midnight. It's officially Christmas Eve. In a few short hours more of your family will be here to celebrate the holiday with us. As I lay here in bed, feeling you kick I feel the need to thank you. You've made me gag, vomit and eat eggs. You've made me cry over work, and love and songs (listen to Trans Siberian Orchestra's Christmas Cannon Rock and tell me why I was bawling). You've made me hiccup, and laugh and pee, yes, in that order. But most importantly you've made me happy. You've made my wildest dreams come true. You've made me a mom. This is the most precious gift you can ever give me. I am forever grateful. So tonight, or rather this morning, as I lay with my hand on my belly, feeling you move and wiggle. I count my blessings this Christmas Eve, as I count your kicks. And I thank you for being the precious miracle that you are. My most cherished gift. Merry Christmas my little Bean. Love Mommy

They say pregnant women crave odd foods like pickles and ice cream. But me? So far I just want pizza. ALL. THE. TIME. I probably have it at least once a week, with a ginormous salad, cause let's face it, I love salad too. Daddy was getting tired of pizza so I started hitting Pizza hut on my lunch break, so I could sneak pizza into my life without anyone knowing. But it's really hard to hide it from everyone when I come back to work smelling like yummy pepperoni! Yesterday daddy surprised me with a wood fired pizza oven and stone for our grill and we made home made pizza with home made dough too! They were amazingly delicious and we had a blast cooking them together. I think we're going to make pizza for Christmas Eve dinner, so that means we'll have to practice our pizza making skills at least one more time before then! Yay! Hope you enjoy pizza Bean, cause more is definitely in your future. Love, M ommy

Hi Bean! Thought I'd check in and fill you in on everything that is new, exciting and YOU! We had your 3D ultrasound on the 14th. Baby you are so beautiful! We saw all your toes and fingers, your legs and arms, measured your tummy and your sweet little head. We saw your nose and eyes and all your hair! But I think the best part was seeing your adorable smile! I'm pretty sure you've got daddy's pouty full lips, cause you didn't get those kissers from me! We registered (again) on Amazon.com and daddy has been adding to it almost daily. He's addicted to finding sweet little baby things for you. He's adorable. We went to a Garth Brooks concert with you. And today little miss, you got your first package in the mail. Your great grandma Warp sent you a lovely little box filled with heartfelt goodies. She hand crocheted a soft baby pink blanket and a matching little hat for you, and bought you your very first baby doll, and the sweetest snap up jammies with strawbe...

So fun fact about being pregnant, you grow lost of thick shiney hair. Everywhere. I used to have only a few chin hairs to pluck once in a while. Now I feel like I'm plucking a full grown beard every other day! Tonight while scrutinizing my chin under a 10x zoom lighted mirror, daddy and I had the following conversation: Me:My pregnancy hormones are growing a beard. Daddy: Mine too! Me: Wait, what!?!? Daddy: In support of my bearded wife I'm growing a pregnancy beard too! Not shaving till after she's born! Oh my. I love a man with a beard. I love your daddy with a beard. But me with a beard? Pass. He can totally win this one and I'll keep plucking for the next 22 weeks.